Number One For Me

Mood sekarang: moodless~~ sedih sgt dgn result colouring kat studio td, tak sangka seteruk itu..so,aku sedapkan hati dgn dgar lagu favourite aku ni..lepas ni of course i'll call this no.1 person to express all my feeling & sadness..sapa2 nak nyanyi lagu ni, kat bawah ni ada lirik:

i was a foolish little child
crazy things i used to do
and all the pain i put you through
mama now i'm here for you

for all the times i made you cry
the days i told you lies
now it's time for you to rise
for all the things you sacrificed

oh, if i could turn back time rewind
if i could make it undone
i swear that i would
i would make it up to you

mum i'm all grown up now
it's a brand new day
i'd like to put a smile on your face every day
mum i'm all grown up now
and it's not too late
i'd like to put a smile on your face every day

and now i finally understand
your famous line
about the day i'd face in time
'cause now i've got a child of mine

and even though i was so bad
i've learned so much from you
now i'm trying to do it too
love my kid the way you do

oh, if i could turn back time rewind
if i could make it undone
i swear that i would
i would make it up to you

oh, if i could turn back time rewind
if i could make it undone
i swear that i would
i would make it up to you

mum i'm all grown up now
it's a brand new day
i'd like to put a smile on your face every day
mum i'm all grown up now
and it's not too late
i'd like to put a smile on your face every day

you know you are the number one for me
you know you are the number one for me
you know you are the number one for me
oh, oh, number one for me

you know you are the number one for me
you know you are the number one for me
you know you are the number one for me
oh, oh, number one for me

there's no one in this world that can take your place
oh, i'm sorry for ever taking you for granted, ooh
i will use every chance i get
to make you smile, whenever i'm around you
now i will try to love you like you love me
only god knows how much you mean to me

oh, if i could turn back time rewind
if i could make it undone
i swear that i would
i would make it up to you

mum i'm all grown up now
it's a brand new day
i'd like to put a smile on your face every day
mum i'm all grown up now
and it's not too late
i'd like to put a smile on your face every day

mum i'm all grown up now
it's a brand new day
i'd like to put a smile on your face every day
mum i'm all grown up now
and it's not too late
i'd like to put a smile on your face every day

the number one for me
the number one for me
the number one for me
oh, oh, number one for me

*Last but not least,thanks sgt2 kpd pembaca yg sudi melawat blog ni, even 6 org ja followers aku..(^_^)

Mahabbah Day...

Go Angry Bird, Go!!
Alhamdulillah selamat jugak mahabbah day aed hari ni.. ada mcm2 games n yg paling tak puas main plus tak puas hati-printer buruk..dah tak ada rezeki nk menang kan, redha jela.. yg penting, rumah merah dpt award rumah paling bersemangat..cayalah!!
tak lupa, kami ramai2 raikan kmenangan rumah merah kat Wendy's td..first time tau mkn kat sana..thanks Tg. Amirah, Aaminah, Syaza, Qilah, Ayu n Mira Bad..sweet moment la.. kita kan family.. ateh happy sgt hari ni, sian adik dah ngantuk sgt td.. Ok ye, just a short post this time..Mama,nenek,along,angah,alang,adik sekalian, mlm ni buat gc elok2 ye..Ateh dh siap water color dah,hehe..see you!!

Shazmiera Rosmidar
CFS IIUM
07/04/2012 1810hours

Oh designku,bila nak approved ni???

      Ya Allah,tabahkn hati hambaMu yg kerdil ini. Aku mnusia lemah,byk kekurangan diri,rasa tak layak ke syurgaMu,tp tak sanggup jua ke nerakaMu..

      Dari first mock up till this current mock up, dah 4 kali kena reject, even tak la rejected totally 100%, tp aku tetap tak dpt nk impress my studio master hingga detik ini. Seriously, my emotion is not stable at all at this rate, habis semua org aku express bad mood aku ni, maybe before this, projek aku dpt perhatian kot, sekali tak gempak, hbis…

      Kesian kat roommates aku, aku memang kalau tgah bad mood, pantang sgt kalau org sentuh brg2 aku/ ubah kedudukan my stuffs/ guna brg aku tnpa izin. Ni la kelemahan aku, susah sgt nk kawal emosi time stress. So, aku pasang la nasyid2 yg tnangkan hati sikit. Sampai bila la dugaan ini ya?

      Aku dpt rasakan rasa down yg teramat sgt time projek 3 ni, biasalah, design kdg2 ok, kdg2 tak mnepati kriteria. Tp masalahnya skrg, design aku seperti tak dipndang lgsung. Bukan nk kata lecturer reject trus, tp design aku kali ni tak dpt perhatian. Kwn aku sorg ni, dari awal dah finalized tau, kan best jd mcm tu. Even korg smua takkan faham 100% apa yg aku rasa, tp aku nk luahkan jugak feeling ni, kalu pendam nanti, lgsung tak berdaya nk truskan projek ni, dah la isnin ni kna submit. Dgn design yg belum finalized ni, mcm mna la nsib aku nanti..

      Air mata aku dah byk jatuh utk projek ni, tak mcm dulu, design aku snang je approved, siap dpt A- lg. Tp, aku rasa Allah rindu rintihan aku la,skrg ni, rasa down tu akn memuncak bila kwn2 lain ckp pasal ni, kalau sorang2, aku rasa semangat tu dtg balik. Aku merintih agar Allah tak tinggalkan aku forever. Whatever it is, I’m very2 grateful coz I have really supporting studiomates. They always make me never feel alone, always think positive. And, they willing to help me in any method. Alhamdulillah..

      Skrg, aku tgah sketch design baru, rasa takut sgt nk tunjuk kt lecturer esok, tp at least, aku dah pernah hdapi situasi mcm ni,aku tau kat Gombak nanti lebih dahsyat dugaannya---design rejected, sketches dikoyak, model disabotaj kwn sndiri… Ya Allah, lindugilah hambaMu ini, kekalkan aku di jalanMu, biarlah berat manapun ujian yg Kau berikan, yg penting ‘‘kegagaln adalah 1 kejayaan yg ditangguhkan-Us.Pahrol Juoi..’’ And, Allah takkan bebankan hambaNya melainkan apa yg kita mampu kan?

      Aku kena bangkit semula, sampai bila nk down mcm ni? Org lain pun diuji, malah lebih dari apa yg aku alami ni, and, Allah sayangkan hambaNya, sbb tu la Dia bg ujian, agar hambaNya sntiasa ingat Allah selalu. Betul tak? Ni dah last sem aku, and I’m doing well up to this level. So, there is no time to feel inferior like this ok? Lawan semua perasaan putus asa tu!! Ingat Allah, ingat Nabi, ingat family!!

      Since esok adalah hari last utk tunjuk mock up model, and we have only 2days to complete this project,hope sgt2 esok kat studio lecturer akn ckp : ‘’See, it’s really great if u can give me something like this earlier! U can proceed..” Amin Ya Allah, aku mohon doaku dikabulkan olehMu. 

(‘.’) Shazmiera Rosmidar

CFS IIUM
22/03/2012

Pengalaman pulang ke rumah yg ternyata berbeza!!

Assalamualaikum kpd smua pmbaca..Dah lama aku x update blog ni,memang brsarang tahap 44 ni,heh.. Bru ja nk start taip,org dpn ni pulak pi bwak trun krusi dia,nsib baik aku cpat2 mngelak,kalau x blh tercabut monitor ni,hbis system unit pon x brfungsi dgn baik, simultaneously microprocessor n memory damaged..  (bhsa computer tu…sesi meng’apply’ ilmu)
            Now back to the main topic, pagi ni aku bangun lmbt,memang expres ja bersiap, trus jd running man..Smpai kat pak guard, ni yg kna jampi byk2 ni,memang la kna tahan, xdpt dinafikan lg..
            “Mana surat ka buku overnight ka? Ada?”
            “Surat apa pak cik? Kna ada surat eh??” Dgn selamba aku tya balik,heh3..

“Nak balik kna la ada surat dri mahallah ofis,pi ambik cpat,ofis dh bukak ni..”
            Nak shortkan story ni,aku dgn muka kesian explain la aku kna kejaq bus pkul 9pg ni,nk pi pudu satu hal..Dah la x sempat breakfast!! Dlm hati, pakcik tlg la, lepas ja la..
            “Pi la keluaq lekas,tp nti blik sini kna saman byaq la rm50 tu, pi la tggu bwh pokok tu..”

Terbeliak biji mata aku time tu, asal dpt blik,mai sini blik lain crita la, kna saman nti pndai2 la aku cover,sbb memang aku x tau kna ada surat, dh la blik pg2, ofis pun bru nk mula beroperasi kan..bas metro,U85,635….mai la cpat..dh dekat 8.15 dah ni..huhu..awat la bgun lmbat..yes, metro 1 2 dh smpai,smgt ni naik..TAPI…
            Aduss,jammed pulak dah..byk btol kreta pg ni,awat la depa ni x naik bas ja, car pooling ka, kurang ckit kreta kat jaln ni (cewah, aku pun bkal mnambah bil.BMW kat jaln ni,BMW konon..) 8.20..8.25..cpat la smpai stesen-u ni,cpat la..Ya Allah, x kira la lmbat mna pun, jammed truk mna pun,asal aku smpat naik bas trans kt pudu nnti..trus berdoa dlm hati ni..
            Run 4 my life!! X tgok dh kiri kanan,( tp tgok la time nk lintas jaln kan,agak2 la pun) aku trus meluru ke mesin token…press laju2,dh masyi dh..lari naik tgga, x sempat pi kat escalator, jauh ckit ja pun.. ok,LRT smpai, aku msuk trus,pintu tertutup,Alhamdulillah..Trus tgok jam,8.35..8.45..kna trus pi plaza rkyat pulak dri msjid jamek ni,lembik lutut kot, naik trun tgga with a maximum speed..segala2nya berjalan lncar, aku memang blh msuk running man dh ni, ada bkat.. heh3..

“Sorry makcik..Kalut ni..” Kesian makcik kiosk ni pun kalut gak bungkus mknan aku..
            “Pakcik,bas ni pi lumut ka??”

“Naik2..”

Ok,dh atas bas,duk blakang skali,sebenarnya,ni bkn bas sebenar..(poyo ja ayat) Aku kna tukaq bas kat duta pulak..and, dri pkul 9, pkul 10 bru bas aku smpai..kat duta, kesian kat mak cik sorang ni, dgn cucu dia..

“Anak ni nk blik tluk intan ye?? Mak cik tggu dri pkul 8 td, x smpai lg basnya..”

Shortkan story, spatutnya aku naik bas skali la dgn mak cik ni,mak cik ni ckp dia ikut menantu dia msuk kerja kt situ,tu yg awal pagi dh tggu,biasala KL, famous dgn kesesakn lalu lintasnya.huh..kami pun berpisah, cucu dia pun dh ngantuk, cute budak tu..a boy..

“Takpe ye makcik,saya balik dlu..”

Sweet child of mine..lagu ni pulak duk main dlm bas ni, lama dh x dgaq..sambung crita, 5A seat aku,bkn result ka apa tau..kejap2, rsa loya la pulak,jap stop jap..

Dah smpai umah dh pun..alhamdulillah..aku bru duk target siapkn post ni atas bas,blh tulis venue atas bas kn..xpala,td memang pening sgt,ngantuk pun ada..jom flashback blik…..

Lupa nak cerita 1 incident kat plaza rakyat, sedang smua org trkejar kejar ke destinasi msing2, aku trlihat sorg uncle cina ni, jaln slow ja, tolak beg dgn troli..and smpai kt tgga pulak,kesian sgt..tp aku pun ada lg 8minit ja nk pkul  9, so aku trus la dgn aktiviti ‘running’ aku ni..dlm hati : Ya Allah, bersyukurnya aku ada kaki yg still kuat, boleh berlari2, sebelum tiba hari aku ditimpa sakit/ tua..ingat lah 5 perkara sebelum 5 perkara!! One more thing, kat stesen bas manjung td, aku trnampak pulak sorg india ni, kaki dia tempang, nak seberang jalan pun lambat td, aku lg stgah jam pun sempat lg smpai pudu, berkat ‘running’ aku, and kalaulah aku xdpt nikmat ‘running’ tu from Allah…...aku makin brsyukur kpd Allah..Terima kasih Allah!!

And, the most touching moment was-I saw a kid..rasanya skola rendah kot..tau dia buat apa smpai aku xblh tahan air mata aku dri jatuh ke bumi?? He was holding a Holy Book---> Al Quran… Aku nmpak ktekunan dia hafal ayat2 suci Allah, I wonder surah apa la dia tgah hafal, xdpt cam,sbb dia duk dpn sikit dlm bas td..If he were a girl, I bet I’m already at her side, tlg tasmik..Aku sedar betapa lalainya aku selama ni, kat CFS aku sedar betapa jauhnya hbungan aku & Quran..Dulu,waktu kat DQ, benda wajib aku bwk pi mai pi mai is surely  Quran Tafsir aku..But now, aku baca Quran pun tak sekerap dulu, smgt iadah pun dah kurang sgt..and, sbb byk sgt projek,smpai x tido mlm,dah byk kali aku x hadir kelas tasmik..and I think I spend more time with this lappy..buat assignment, on9, tengok video, dgaq lagu…..Astaghfirullah..aku takut sgt kalau msa setahun stgah yg aku spend kat DQ dulu sia2..Ya Allah, tlg aku!! Sedarkn diriku kmbali!!

 Kmbalikn smgtku utk brdamping dgn ayat2 mu selalu…

One more interesting thing about the kid is, family dia  biasa2 ja..mak dia ( xsure,tp gayanya mcm tu la kot) free hair ja, ranggi2 sikit..kakak dia pun biasa ja, tp bertudung la..and, mak dia sgt smgt utk tasmik anak dia..aku bersyukur sbb parents skrg suka hntaq anak2 depa msuk tahfiz kan..ada mdm kat CFS ni, anak dia 4 org, all hafiz,hafizah..hebat sgt!!  And aku pun trfikir, budak ni la nnti yg akn tlg family dia to become a better family,ubah pelan2,sbb budak ni lelaki, lg senang aku rasa..kalau tak kat dunia, insya Allah kat akhirat nnti dia still blh tlg depa..so sweet kan..=)

Aku share ni utk peringatan diri aku sndiri la,sbb aku pun xbyk followers pun,memang x update pun blog..Tetiba ja rajin mnaip ni,so carry on ja la..So I hope that diz story will bring benefit to others,even just a little..Thanks Allah, thanks the characters involved, thanks to YOU…

Shazmiera Rosmidar

Manjung,perak

08.03.2012 @ 1536 hours

Advice On Friends...(^_^)

        A REAL FRIEND WISHES HIS COMPANIONS WELL, HE'S NOT ONE WHO ALLOWS THEM TO GET CLOSE TO HELL, ALWAYS BE CAREFUL OF THE FRIENDS YOU CHOOSE, SO, IN THE END,JANNAH YOU WILL NOT LOSE, IF YOU FIND YOUR COMPANION IS NOT STOPPING YOUR WRONG, THEN, BE WEARY, HIS FRIENDSHIP IS NOT STRONG..

        IF YOU SEE THE PATTERN MADE, THAT WHEN YOU ARE UNDER YOUR FRIEND'S SHADE,YOUR IMAN BEGINS TO FADE, LEAVE THE WORTHLESS CREATION, MAKE FRIENDS WITH ALLAH, SURELY THAT IS A HIGH STATION!!

        A DERVISH WHO HAD KNOWLEDGE OF OUR PRESENT SITUATION, ONCE TOLD HIS STUDENTS THE FOLLOWING DICTATION,

"THE MEETING OF PEOPLE WILL NEVER ENRICH YOU, SAVE WITH THE GIBBERISH OF USELESS GOSSIP. SO DIMINISH YOUR MEETING WITH PEOPLE, EXCEPT FOR KNOWLEDGE OR TO IMPROVE YOUR CONDITION..."

(IMRAN IBN ZARKHAN AL SHAFI)

Good Luck!!~

"ALL OF US DO NOT HAVE EQUAL TALENT,

BUT...

ALL OF US HAVE

AN EQUAL OPPORTUNITIES

TO DEVELOP OUR TALENTS!!!"

~DR. ABDUL KALAM

UkhUwwaH itU~

indahnya ukhuwwah ini..

dikala lupa ada yg mengingati,

dikala silap ada yg menasihati..

di dunia jasad & hatinya menemani,

di kubur nanti pasti doanya mengiringi..

kita tidak mencari sekelumit redha manusia,

yg kita cari seinfiniti redha Ilahi..

moga hari-hari yg dikau lalui penuh mekar,

dilatari kuntuman bunga-bunga iman...AMEEN~